Each and every one of us has individual, unique crosses God gives us to grow closer to Him. These crosses can change over time. These crosses can remain with us our entire lives. These crosses can go years without surfacing, only to resurface at, what we might consider, the most inconvenient times. But with each and every one of these crosses comes grace. More grace than we could ever imagine.
This summer one of my life long crosses resurfaced. Before I get into that I need to be honest, I never once thought of my bike accident and the many repercussions of it over the past 18 years, as one of my crosses…. until recently. And since I’m being honest, it wasn’t until the last few months that I even stared to grasp what a cross was or how it would bring me closer to God. I had heard about offering up my crosses my entire life but never understood what it meant. I still don’t fully understand it but I have a better idea now than I ever did before.
Several times over the last couple of months different people (priests, my husband, my mom, friends) have all mentioned in one way or another how crosses bring us closer to God and that this cross is and will be a hard for me. One that is so unique that I knew no one else with a similar story to mine that I could relate to. You know what it made me do, learn to lean on God and to let myself become vulnerable and ask others for prayers and offer it for others intentions. And the graces God has blessed me and my family with have been wonderful.
Now, I still have days, lots of days actually, that I forget about offering up my crosses and to lean on God. It’s a huge work in progress. I stumble a lot but God is so good, He’s always willing to forgive me when I fall and welcomes me back each and every time.
Jesus, I Trust in You!
I also wanted to thank each and every one of you who has prayed for me. Your prayers have done wonders for me. My surgery this past Friday went well, so I’m told. I am definitely more swollen and have more pain than I anticipated but thanks to my wonderful husband and mom, I’ve been able to rest all weekend and will continue to rest all week. Now it’s a waiting game to see how my body will respond to the new bone and when will be healed enough to place the implant. Thank you all again for your prayers. I will continue to pray for all of you and your intentions. God bless!